When you start to spin about what happened during the blackouts

There is peace in not knowing everything. If you’re meant to know, it will come to you. Your brain is very much like bubbles reaching the surface. Each bubble moves in its own time. Another bubble has to disappear for the surface to become calm for the next bubble to come up. Your brain will reveal what it needs to. I spent time being thankful that I am safe and that nothing consequential happened during those moments. I also have taken time to ponder the hurt person I was in those moments so I can understand her. Because loving her is how I am now on day 1339 being sober. So I might not remember all of the details, I do remember her pain. And I hold that space for her so healing can happen. Thankful for every sober day.